Whatever will be will be. . . .

We met with the Genetic Counselor this week and it was very informative. It seem that only one of the three things they consider for the first trimester screening was abnormal.

My HCG was normal, the baby's nuchal fold was normal, it was only the papp-A which was abnormal coming back lower than average. Which is why my risk for a child with down syndrome rose from my age related risk of 1 in 215 to 1 in 131.

Yes, this is still less than one percent and the risk of the amnio is anywhere from 1 in 300 to 1 in 1000 depending on which study you refer to.

So hubby and I have decided not to have the amnio because we worked too hard to get to this point in a pregnancy and would not be able to live with ourselves if we lost the pregnancy due to the test. We are going to proceed with the second trimester screening in a few weeks and then have the detailed anatomy scan at 19 weeks. The Genetic counselor said if this scan come back clean for any soft markers then my risk will be recalculated and lessened.

On another note though the decreased papp-A value has been linked to other pregnancy complications, such as placental insufficiency, fetal death, preterm birth, IUGR, low birth weight and preclampsia. So the Dr has decided she will monitor me more closely with monthly ultrasound with focus on the placenta. Especially since my mother lost three pregnancies between 18 and 24 weeks.

So for now we are just letting it all go with God, whatever will be will be. It is out of our control. Until the baby is viable, even if there is a problem with the placenta, nothing can really be done. So I cannot stress over something that is beyond human control.

I have officially missed a period! Hurray!

So Aunt Flo was a no show today! Thank God! Got my quantitative HCG from yesterday and it is 257! So we have a little more than doubled. So we are still in the game!

I go for more blood work tomorrow and RE says she will call me on Saturday to give me the results and let me know what the next step is.

I asked about my progesterone and all they would say was that it was really good and I didn't need the supplements but they would keep checking.

I think the antibiotics are doing the trick as I am finally feeling better. So I am staying cautiously optimistic but just taking it one day at a time. Which is all I can do.

I will post again on Saturday after I hear from the RE.

The bloodwork is in, and it is not so good.

So I finally called the Dr's office back and asked to speak to a nurse. I just had some questions that needed to be answered.

Turns out the reason they changed the plan for the clomid is that my FSH/estradiol test results did not come back in the normal range.

My FSH was fine at 3. But my estradiol was very high at 260. Which explains why they did the HCG pregnancy screen. So they feel that the chances of sucess is low so they will not treat this cycle. What this all means she says I will have to discuss with the Dr. So at least I have some idea of what is going on...

But this is the first test I have had that did not come back normal, so maybe we are the right track to getting an answer..

I guess I will just have to wait to find out.

So AF has arrived...but still in medical limbo

Alright, so I go my period on Thursday and called the RE like I was told to. Only to find out she was out of the office for the day and there was no note on my chart as to what the next step was. They told me to call back Friday morning. I call back Friday morning, and they still don't know. They left a message for the Dr but hadn't gotten a response yet. They finally call me back late Friday and say that I have to get bloodwork done on Saturday for a Day 3 FSH and Estradiol. And that I probably would be getting clomid. Receptionist asks me to call Monday morning to get an appointment as the computers are already down.

So I get the bloodwork Saturday, call Monday morning. They don't have the results so they ask me to call back in 2 hours while they speak to the Dr.

I call back 2 hours later, still no results, still no note on my file as what to do. But Dr did ask them to call lab and get them to run an HCG level on bloodwork. ???? I am definately not pregnant but whatever.

I call then again 2 hours later now it is about 3pm and they close at 4pm. Still no results, they tell me they will call me before they close.

4:30pm I go to the bathroom and sure enough the phone rings while I am in there. Damn! I don't get to it in time. They leave a message, that my HCG is less than 2, so call in the morning, since they are now closed, and get an appointment to come in to talk to Dr.

So I called them this morning, and Dr want to speak to me. The next available appointment is next week Thursday. I ask if my bloodwork came back normal and all they will say is that is what the Dr wants to talk to you about. WTF!

I ask if we can try this cycle, or if we should wait. Receptionist puts me on hold and then comes back and says Dr said you can do it if you want? What???

So now I am majorly stressing over this. Ugh! I will keep you updated... not sure what to make of all this...