I am starting to freak a bit...

So the morning sickness has been much better the last few days and it is really starting to freak me out. I go the the regular OB today for the first time and I think I am going to have to beg them to schedule me for another ultrasound as I just need to see that the little heart is still beating. The anxiety is getting the best of me and I hate that.

I am really nervous again today and just preparing myself for the worst. Wondering if I can ever go to a Dr's appointment again without having an anxiety attack.

I will update later...

Happy to be queasy! Scared to feel better.

So far so good. At the ultrasound the baby looked great, it measured 8 1/2 weeks, the heart rate was in the 170's and it was even moving a bit. It was surreal, I cried. For the first time I started to think I might actually be having a baby, not just be pregnant.

But it is still a day to day struggle. I got the doppler but haven't been able to hear anything yet. I have officially "graduated" from the RE and am headed back to my regular OB. Can't say that I am entirely comfortable with that. I have really appreciated having the weekly ultrasounds, it has given me some reassurance and something to look forward to. Not sure what my regular OB will do. I have my first appointment with her on Thursday so I guess we will see.

I am still anxious, today I am not as nauseous so I have been a little worried. I wish I could just know if the baby was still alive. But I am really tired still, and my boobs still hurt. So I will try to take comfort in that. Also my loving husband has given me his cold, so I feel a bit under the weather. . .fun! Today I am pregnant, I love my baby and that is all that matters.