Saturday, January 31, 2009

Only a Dream...

I saw my baby, she was perfect, we brought her home and she looked so cute in her carseat and little pink hat. I cradled her and we laid down and eventually feel asleep. When I woke up she was gone...she was only a dream. It was only a dream.

I can't find any hiding spot from my grief and sadness, it even haunts me in my sleep. I wish the dream would have lasted a little longer.


Stacy said...

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I too understand about the dreams....I often see my Andrew in my dreams, and wake to find that he really is gone. there is nothing that I can say that will help....just hang in there the best you can and keep hoping for the best. You'll be in my thoughts. (Got your blog off babycenter, by the way.)

Nicholle said...

I just found your blog, and this post just really hit home hard. I just had a second miscarriage in about 3 months, making it my third misscarriage in total. I just had a dream this week of me delivering a baby girl, how I wish it were more than just a dream!

I am reading from when you started blogging and am only this far, I see you do have a daughter and can't wait to see how she came to bless you and your family!

Thank you for blogging about this, I feel so alone and reading this is helping!